What if, what if, what if, what if…

What if this goes wrong?

What if the news is more than we can handle?

What if he dies?

 
Buzzing in my head

A constant symphony

Echoing in the caverns

Louder and louder until I can’t ignore

What if, what if, what if….

What if I don’t get better?

What if they never find an answer?

What if everything just gets worse?

 

All consuming

Never ending

Worry

Stress

Panic

Paranoia

 

 

Caught in the chorus of

What if, what if, what if….

 
What if the car goes off the bridge?

What if a plane comes through the house?

What if the world ends tomorrow in a fiery blaze?

 
The chorus never leaves

Always echoing inside

I fight

I struggle

I try to resist

 
Some days I can’t

Some days the what ifs win

But some days

I can push past

Tune out the quiet him of

What if, what if, what if, what if