[Content warning: abuse, rape, memory loss]

Two years of mist

Two years a void

Two years of missing memories

Two years of mist

A fog that lays thick, blanket-like

Over the timeline of my life

 

Two years a void

A blank space devoid of recollection

A barren wasteland

 

Two years of missing memories

Stolen by a once lover

Blocked by a mind trying to survive

 

Two patchy years

Two years a blur

Two years trying to come back

 

Two patchy years

Sporadic recollection

Peeking through the mist

 

Two years a blur

A hazy swirl

Rooted in unknown

 

Two years trying to come back

A smell, a sight, a sound

Let loose the flood

 

Would you believe?

Would you trust?

Would you understand?

 

Would you believe

The word of one

Who can barely remember?

 

Would you trust

Assertions of a trauma felt

But unable to be described?

 

Would you understand

The fear and pain

Of feeling but not knowing?

 

Two years of mist

Two patchy years

Would you believe me?